apple: 90
fiberone: 120
potato: 110
laughing cow cheese: 35
broccoli: 0
soup: 190
yogurt: 100
diet hot coco: 25
total: 670

workout: -600

net total: 70

i'm trying to decide if i should have an icee at the movies. i am craving one soooo badly and i know that its fat free. how many calories do you guys think are in a small? 100? 200? 500?

i fit into my 7/8 jeans now. that's a step...but definitely not any major accomplishment. i mean, 9/10 jeans are disgusting and 7/8 jeans are just as gross. but one day they will be 3/4's and then 1/2's!!!

stay strong lovies!!
much <33333

mood: contemplative

hi eveyone, im new to live journal, not exactly sure what i am doing-yet!  your stories are an inspiration to me! i hope we will be chatting soon!

heyy sweeties how is everyone ? hope your all well ?
arugg i got such a bad stomach i was up lastnight at 4am thinking i was going to be sick [i was shaking i was horrible :(.] so do you think i will gain anything if i sleep most of the day and eat nothing just drink water i have not got the stomach for food or excrise [i feel so bad i hate being ill] i really need to lose 3-5 pounds before christmas :)
im really upset aswell i was souspt to be going shopping with my sister but i cant so great arugg i HATE being ill ai well i dont mind if it a cold lols all my love and support rose x x x x

location: bed mood: crappy

Do any of you ladies smoke weed?

One of my friends said that, when you get the munchies, if you don't eat, you burn more calories because your body's hungry and you aren't feeding it. Does anyone know if this is true?

Sam :) xx

B: tuna (90 cal)
L: Mushrooms + green peppers (120 cal)
Swimming (100 cal)
Gym (550 cal)

So far so good :)

Gotta go make dinner for the whole family :'(
Gonna make fish fingers and veg, so it shouldn't be too many cals

Other than excruciating boredom, today's been well.. How is everyone???

Sam :) x

music: Infected Mushroom doof doof doof

im knew to livejournl. im 14 my name is amber. im am 142 an been ana for 2yrs. im not sure how livejournl works much so plz add me. thank u.

Okay, I love midterms and finals week. I've been so busy studying that eating is the least of my worries. I was so busy, I lost 5lbs! <3

New Stats:
5'4"
HW:140
LW:105
CW:105
GW:98

STAY STRONG LADIES! YOU'LL MAKE IT! <3

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kay so i am staying on track here today. I had less than 600 cals. I ate:

1/2 banana
1 apple
grilled chicken salad

i weighed 115 this morning and at 8pm i weigh 114 (after dinner) so i am hoping to be 112 tomorrow. I hope; but i will still be happy if i'm 113, i mean not happy happy but happy i'm back down again and then i'll be 3 pounds away from my goal weight instead of 5 pounds. I want to be 110 by my vacation christmas eve i leave for florida. Bikini time. I am in my room upstairs entertaining myself and i will not be going downstairs at all in the kitchen. I ate healthy grilled chicken for dinner so i wouldnt binge and i'm on a new medicine called pristiq combined with lamictal and i am almost weened off my geodon (which was making me eat) so i dont really have the urge to go down and eat. i am in control and it feels great. 6 more days of strict restricting

heyy ladiess
how is everyone ? hope your all well ?
thanks for the advice i think i am going to start eating carrots(even though i dont like them lol)
ok so my day was not so bad could of been better could of been worse i was doing good untill i seen this really skinny pretty girl i know i felt so upset that i nearlly binged but i stopped amazingly :) it would of only made me feel worse.
i was wondering do any of yous know your body shape ? im a apple :/ thats why i do so many sit-ups lol
anyways for me tomorrow im going to have cereal in the morning and night and just drink tea all day i got my nicece aswell so i will pouds be running after her all day :) lol
love to hear off you all
all my love and support rose x x x x

location: bedroom mood: hopeful

O MY GOD my mother is really suspicious! She basicly held me captive in the car and gave me a LONG talk about how i need to eat more and stuff i said i was and then she made me eat a WHOLE PLATE OF NACHOS and i COuldn't Purge because if i tried she'd Know !!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! Just when i was doing so well..... What the HEll should i DO?

mood: scared

Heyaa everyone :)

My name's Sam and I'm 17

I've been struggling with my weight ever since I can remembaa.. It got really bad about 2 years ago when I found out my best friend (at the time) had mia - - then we started having competitions,supporting each other, sharing tipss and everyything, so we both lost a loot of weight at that time.. My parent's started getting suspicious so there were lotss of trips to doctorss and therapists involved - - Basically, a really crappy time. They watched me like a hawk, made me change schools and break contact with my friend :'(

My mum thought it was just a phase, she was on my arse for a couple of months, but now she doesn't suspect anything (probably because I'm so fucking fat)..

I have my ex-best friend on Facebook, and she's looking so skinnyy - -I get so jealous whenever she adds new pics :'( It makes me want to literally rip my fat off my body!

CW: 70 kg (uhh.. about 150lbs)
HW: 80 kg (about 170lbs PUKEPUKEPUKE)
LW: 55 kg (About 120lbs)
GW: 50 kg (About 110lbs) <3

I'm on holidayss nowadayss and all my friends have gone away, so it's just me and my fat here for the next 2 monthss.. Starting at a new college in January and I neeed to be skinny.

Skinny = confidence = friends
Fat = insecure = no friends

In the past 2 weeks I've lost 2kg (4lbs) but it's taking tooo.damn.long.. Been back to the old cycle of purging.. It's been a tendency for the past 2 years, but nowadays I'm slipping back into the old cylce and it feels so NORMAL (is that wierd??)

Well, anywayss.. That's all about me

Most ana/mia communities on LJ look pretty dead, but this one looks like everyone's recieving lotssa support, so I hope I can add to the support and recieve some in return :)

Sam :) xxx

Hi ladies!

I've lost 4 pounds in 2 days and i cannot believe it. I guess pilates and yoga really help. What kind of exercises do you all do at home?

5'11"
CW-136
GW-129

Anyone read the book "Skinny" by Ibi Kaslik? I just finished it and I found some of it triggering but for the most part I found it a little "out there". While I have a very severe eating disorder, the girl in the book seemed to be struggling with something almost schizophrenic. However, this may just be a thought I'm having because I don't have a person in my head I talk to? I've heard of that and I understand that. This girl's "person" materialized though. Like she could see her and describe her clothes and would touch her and stuff. Has anyone else experienced this in their eating disorder or is this part of the fictional aspects of the book to make it more "real"

mood: blah

not a good day. i feel like a giant fatass. i am a complete failure. i hate myself!! i wish i could just push a magic button and it would magically shave off 10 pounds. it feels like i haven't had a good day in forever. my best friend is having her b-day party on friday and i know there is gonna be loads of food. it's gonna be a disaster. i wish that i had someone close to me that was ana to talk to, not that all of you ladies aren't amazing, because you are, but it's just not quite the same as talking to someone in person or on the phone.

i could really use some support right now, anything that might cheer me up. please girls?!

thinking thin

*hugs* <3

~Maile~

Does ne 1 know how many tablespoons are in those little 2 dollar bottles of betty crocker chocolate sprinkles? Most chocolate sprinkles are around 35 calories per table spoon but I don't know how many were in there. It was a very small bottle though. Ugh. So today I ate less than one cup of rice with a couple small pieces of kimche which is under 200 cals. But then I ate the whole bottle of chocolate sprinkles. And if theres 5 tbs in there...im not sure though...that would put me up to 375...dammit. *cries*

heyy girless how is everyone ? hope your all well ? i was wondering wah do you guyss have for your 'safe food' ? expect fruit ( i cant eat fruit gives me a bad stomach ) and i dont like vegtables ) im REALLY fussy. i really need some advice especially for christmas i nomally eat cerals beans and soup there all low fat please tell me some suggestions sweeties all my love and support rose xxxx

mood: peaceful

Hey everyone. Just introducing myself. I am 24, live on the east coast, been dealing with this Ed since I was 12. I'm fat again now, but restricing drastically.

cw:155
hw:155
lw:92
gw:105...sort of...I dont really have a goal..thats just a weight that I can stop at without dying..haha...

do any of you girls get periods?
i am currently having my first period for months...possibly years, and it is scaring the living shit out of me. i never want to have this again. i can smell it whenever i move, and i can feel all the blood in my pants. its so horrible, and i cant leave the house or do anything. i dont know what to do. i feel so gross. i am at the heaviest weight since being diagnosed. i feel so SO ugly. i know logically i would not be ugly anymore if i took my glasses off, straightened my hair and put some makeup on, but i feel so fucking ugly NOW and my face is bloated and dripping with fat. i need to starve again. i need to lose weight. i need to never have another period again. if i starve myself for a week i should be able to hit the underweight category again. then hopefully next month i wont be bleeding like this. yuck yuck yuck.
someone help me? i am home alone, back from uni, and bored. im just swimming in my thoughts about periods and fatness. help me someone? how can i occupy myselF?

I'd like to introduce a new site!

It's called GlitterVeins Socialite.

It's one of the very first social networking sites exclusively intended for those with eating disorders. You can check it out at http://www.social.glitterveins.com

You can upload photos, files, create video albums, comment on each other's walls, keep a blog, create and join groups, and much much more!

But best of all, you can connect with others who have eating disorders with the fear of your account being deleted, like on myspace and facebook.

Thanks. We look forward to seeing you.